Hate to admit it, but I'm in a pit

Thank God for books that come just at the right time.

Our women's Bible study has just started Beth Moore's "Get Out of that Pit." Unfortunately I missed the first session 'cuz I'm still sick (after about 3 weeks). A kind friend sent home a copy for me and last night, between bouts of coughing, I read the first 3 chapters.

It struck me when she said: "You know you're in a pit when...

1. You feel stuck.
Yep...stuck in this pit of sickness, that's for sure.

2. You can't stand up.
Literally...I've been so wracked from the coughing even moving around's been a problem.

3. You've lost vision.
It's hard to stay focused on the goal when all I can see is my own agony.

Each of those descriptions has various levels to it, physical, spiritual, emotional, but the bottom line is...you've reached a point where you've lost the joy and you're not fighting the good fight anymore. That's pretty much where I am right now. I'm tired. I'm sick of being sick. I'm tired of not having any energy to play with my kids. I'm starting to question the value of what I do.

Now my husband's sick with malaria. My daughter's just come crying that she has an ear ache. We're a house full of sickies. This is not fun.

Yep...it's definitely a pit.

And Beth reminds us that satan loves to dig and camouflage pits right in front of us so we get tangled up, ineffective, self-pitying and unable to stand against him.

Well, this mama's not gonna let that pit become my home. I want the fire back, the vision, the joy of the Lord.

Pray for me (us!) as we walk through yet another trial. Let God be glorified in this, because He alone, the Lamb that was slain, is worthy.